Golden Birthday.

Content warning: I didn’t edit out the explicit words like I normally would have. Mostly because there are some things in life that deserved to be cussed at, and losing your brother is one of them. It fucking sucks.   HBD little brother. See that hole in the picture above? That’s where you were supposed […]

Unproductive & Useless.

I have always been a very busy person. In college, I led Young Life and worked 1-2 jobs on top of an 18 hour semester workload. While it was physically draining, I developed a love for that pace of life. Well- maybe less love and coping mechanism. When I’m busy, I don’t have time to […]

Welcome to Prison.

Those are words spray painted on the rocks as I drove into the camp today, and from the little bit I saw the camp wasn’t prison, it was hell. Really, I have no right to say that. I did not stay long enough to know the depths. I’m privileged enough to get to walk in, […]

Gettin’ Dunk’d.

It’s been a year since I decided to get baptized, so I figured it was time to finally get around to writing about it. This post is what I shared at church when I was baptized and its a little choppy because of that. I only had like 3 mins to share my whole life. […]

Me Too.

I have spent lots of time deciding if I should write about this. There’s a voice in the back of my head that says, “don’t do this. you need to protect him still. it was your fault anyway. if you tell people, they will think you’re dirty, gross, and unworthy.” ┬áThat voice is the voice […]


This post will be a bit different than my others. Selfishly, I just really love this story and wanted to write it (also narrative isn’t my best work, bear with me) and if you’re reading this, chances are, at some level, you are curious about it as well (or at least, that’s what I’m telling […]

Feelings & Faith.

The other day Jason was patiently listen to me word vomit a bunch of my feelings. At one point he paused and chuckled a little bit. Now, I don’t know about you, but laughter while you are sharing things that make you sad isn’t really the response you expect. I think I gave him a […]


Today would have been Ethan’s 19th birthday. All week, I had a guilt rock just kind of camping out in the pit of my stomach. This guilt stemmed from a fear I was forgetting. A little back story. Since the accident, time and I have not gotten along very well. I have come to dread […]